College Day today, twas quite overwhelming sitting through a ceremony that embraced the unthinkable greatness of Rafflesians; to think that in the v near future these people receiving awards could be my friends, or even, that I'm expected to live up to such standards. V intimidating, I say. Then again it just shows that it's all possible and within reach, or maybe it's currently just out of reach, but soon it won't be with much determination.
Got to meet quite a number of ex-councillors/my predecessors! Generally nice and wise people with much valuable advice to dispense, and I wonder how I'd be when I'm their age. What exactly do I want to accomplish in my term?
It's amazing yet scary how things can change so quickly, so quickly that you become uncertain of the future and wary of fate. There's so much going on, so much to do, so much to think about, so much time wasted on things that eventually wastes your time don't turn out to be worth it at all. At least there are things which remain a constant, a straight line that promises, for as long as you can hope for.
I am learning, and I learn new things everyday.
It seems I no longer have much to say here.
The only interesting thing I did tonight was to do some personality test that Stuart sent.
"Write down one word that describes Sea"
My word: CALMING
"Your description of Sea implies your own life"
But I describe the current state of my life as the calm before the storm
QIANWEI AND MACEY!
qianwei i'm sorry i forgot about your birthday twice in a day! haha dont be angry! i'll definitely buy you a papaya balloon when i see one!
and macey macey macey! wow i've known you since sec 1! and we keep getting related to each other! haha fate just loves to put us together :D
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okay i'm not exactly bored and do not exactly have a lot of time to spare. but i just finished up TWO wutws. so it's time to slack.
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okay i'm trying to use this to represent two person! dont bother guessing!
i really dont understand how people moodswing so badly. it's really hell irritating and i hate it when you do that.
and person number two. you're just irritating me and i would love it if you would to just hide in your ugly smelly shell.
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this is a t-shirt design! haha WOW!
and this is a hoodie design! umm but for ICE hockey! BOO):
it says Peace.Love.Hockey btw.
smurfs playing hockey! :D
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love is all around.
or isit.
i hate uncertainties.
I've never been a great student. Seriously.
I definitely am not able to not study and still get As/ Bs.
As usually, my grades show great disparity. i.e.
math+chem [LOW] ----------------------------------------> [RELATIVELY HIGH] the rest of the subjects
It's always math and chem. Always. It's like they refuse to get a divorce; at least one should travel higher by this year.
I'm working towards that divorce.
Meanwhile, I'll grimace and stay focused (to finish all my chem focus)
I look at the last post and feel quite amused at how delirious I was over the end of CTs. I've had my share of disappointment, but I'll move on with more strength than before. The results were practically slaps in my face, providing me with that much needed wake-up call to remind me that I'm not who I want to be, that it's all about consistency and hard work which I've taken for granted, that I am ultimately a student and my very basic responsibility is to study, & score. This time I've disappointed myself, but perhaps it's a blessing in disguise, because now I'm determined, more than anything, to focus and work v hard. THIS IS CALLED RESILIENCE.
I'm v thankful for the people who were there for me yesterday, who tried to make my day a little better (be it with a banana, hugs, smses or a v lame joke). I don't rly know why I cried as much as I did; maybe it was an accumulation of all the pressure thus far, school-wise. The last time I cried over results was in P5 I think? When I got 88 for Math because it wasn't an A* haha how retarded I was that time. If I get 88 for Math now I'll just scream and run around the track 10 times.
So school life is pretty much about studies council and soccer now, and I will prioritise accordingly. I'm no superwoman, but I know that I can recover the strength and ability I used to have back when I was in RG (:
The only way left is up, and that's where I'll be heading towards.
On a separate note, Raffles swept all 6 titles for Swim Nats this year! First in history, how awesome. Canoeing, Track and Judo coming up, go go go Raffles! I'd choose Raffles anyday, rly.
victoria koh thinks i badmouthed her on my blog.. HAHA.
BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH BADMOUTH
there you go my dear victoria(:
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hm i feel busy! and i have a strong urge to run!
omg how cute(:
lisa simpson playing ice hockey!
life has been good today!
although i doubt tmr will be just as good..
random things in my head that i refuse to put into words:
true friends..
nicknames..
overkill..
boundaries..
true feelings..
mask..
relationships..
untrue..
unfamiliar..
oh no i'm becoming as random as nicolesieow ):
CAN'T!
xiangying is happy because she'll be able to see her loves every wednesday morning! :D and SHE LOVES THEM SO MUCH that she's very sure wednesdays will be awesome days!
xiangying is happy too because she's going out with ta on monday! and SHE LOVES AND MISSES TA SO MUCH that she's gona be willing to binge at sakae with them!
xiangying is happy because she's glad she had lynette to 'tear' to on friday! and SHE LOVES LYNETTE ALOT and is very glad lynette was there for her!
xiangying is happy for all the friends she has! :D
but if only the present is as good as the past..
ISA I LOVE YOU :D
thanks for telling me that you signed up as an ogl partially so that we can work together again! hehe! MADE MY DAY YOU LOVABLE MOQI WOQI DONKEY!
haha! and please dont be a sad girl.. if seafood waits for the tide to subside before coming back on shore, then the seafood is good seafood! HAHA! this is fun! i hope you get my point dear!
anw ocomm has been a wonderful experience so far :D JOIN OTEAM FRIENDS :D i'm very sure it'll be just as fun :D
RECRUITMENT!
sign up as part of oteam for orientation 2009!! IT'LL BE AWESOMELY FUN AND A VERY GOOD EXPERIENCE!
haha this is kinda late.. but if you didnt go for the briefing, just contact the Oi/cs, YANSHENG and CHERIE! (with a valid reason!)
btw msword version of OGL recruitment form will be uploaded at 9pm! please wait patiently!
dont forget to submit it by latest 12pm on saturday!
<3 ocomm!
